Hello, friends! Happy Humpday! I hope the week is treating you well. Life has been a bit crazy lately so I thought we would have a little coffee date and catch up.
I honestly would love to have a coffee date with you right now. I have so much going on in my head to share. Plus I would love to just listen to what you have to say and not worry about anything else. I was supposed to go on a coffee/playdate today but had to cancel. I am selling a friend’s car for her so I needed to take care of that and plus little man needed a nap.
If we were having coffee right now I would be hoping you would order a pastry or donut so I would not be eating alone. I would also confess it is my third cup. I would pick a window or outside seat because they are the best! I would also put my phone and computer away. Here are a few things I would tell you.
1. I just left my job.
This was a difficult and not so difficult discussion. It is something me and my husband have been talking and praying about for a year now. See I never really wanted to be a stay at home momma but I also never wanted to work full-time. I grew up in a single-parent household with the best daddy a girl could ask for. He worked so hard to provide for us but worked a lot of hours. This took him away from the home a lot.
I have always dreamed of having nights and weekends with my family. It is just hard when I am away from the home 45+ hours a week. I have to cook, clean, get groceries, and work on my mater’s homework during ‘family time’. I can only do so much before everyone wakes up and after Mason’s bedtime. Part-time work has always been my plan but that is not an option where we live. Mostly due to the limited childcare. So we decided for me to stay at home. We want to have that largest impact on our child’s life. Time is a huge factor is this I do not want him to have a connection and pick up traits from a stranger. I feel very blessed to be able to do this. I know not everyone has the opportunity.
2. I feel guilty.
I feel guilty for leaving work and I feel guilty for working. Mom guilt is seriously the worst! I know that we will have to budget more without me working. We also cannot save the amount of money we were before. While I believe what we are gaining from me being at home is far more that any savings account I do have guilt over it. I fear my husband resenting me but not telling me.
3. 30 Day Reset.
I’ve mentioned I am reading Wired to Eat. We are about to start the 30-day reset. I’ll be documenting how I feel during this time. My husband suffers from digestive issues. I’ve been dealing with a rash and a sweet tooth <—-give me ice cream! Even though we do eat pretty clean and not the SAD diet I believe we need a reset. I’ve never done a challenge like this before so I am a bit intimidated.
I would talk about how excited I am for this summer! I wanted to be a mommy for so long and now not only have we been blessed with Mason but I get to stay home with him! It is amazing! I get overwhelmed with emotions thinking about it. I even cried at library time yesterday watching him! How crazy it that?!
Now I feel like that was a deep coffee date.
Questions: What is going on in your life? What are your plans for the summer? Have yo completed a nutrition challenge?